I think this space of mine is useful in times like this where I just pop out from no where and just want to write some stupid things on it. :D this may become a really holy post.
Anyway.....
It's holiday now. And I got my result. It's as shitty as the previous term I must say.
Wth. I got the same GPA. So my GPA is not moving at all. Like what the shit is this?!
Okay. It's over... Whatever~
I'm working now! On Fridays, where I was urged to quit the job by my mum. But obvious NO. I didn't. Haha.
Because Im saving saving saving for something really big for my boy.
Hopefully I'm able to save that sum of money. If not I will just maybe drown myself in the sea crying why I didn't save enough. So ya... My life is sad cause I'm not rich. ):
So probably I need about 2k for his surprise. So pray that I have that sum of money by July. Ya. That would only happen if god throws money from the sky down to me )': anyway I'm just gonna pray alright. No harm praying right. Maybe one day I would like strike lottery or something, although I don't buy it. D:
But you never know right?!
Oh yes! I'm also saving up to go DRX clinic to get flawless skin. Oh yes! My long wish is finally gonna be fulfilled by this year. Woo! I'm gonna be a happy child soon. Maybe not a child... But a happy adult ! Hehe.
But on the downside. I probably need to save like the max 1k for it? So yes, this brings me back to the same question. Why wasn't I born rich?! Like a freaking rich ass with money to just throw around to the homeless. WHY WHY WHY !?!?!?
Enough of all the money talking and saving plans.
It's time I should really thank god for giving me someone special in my life. Probably his the one, or not. But Im wishing he is though.
Never felt the same way or I must say even better since the year 2008.
I don't know.. Maybe I have grown up. And I know who is good or bad. But I must say, although his not the ideal type that I was looking for I still enjoy his company and actions he have done for me. He may not be rich where we will go out to expensive restaurant everyday, but he do cook for me. We may not celebrate anniversary like other couples do but we treat everyday with each other special. He may appear unromantic but i know that he love me and he do sometimes can be romantic like once in a blue moon sending long Sweet messages, singing, teasing each other.
I don't ask for much in this relationship because like what everyone says "love is blind"
And yes, I totally agree with that now.
I was sceptic at first about this phase. But after this, I must really confess. Love is really blind. Everyone who knows me would ask me the same question. "I thought his not the type you one".
I myself can't even answer that question.
I kept wondering but I couldn't find the answer. That's when I know yes. Love is really blind, and have blinded many others in either the good or the bad ways.
But I must say, it has blinded me in a good way. Because if you were to ask how much to a scale of 1-10 how much I love him. I will say infinity. No numerical number to specify how much I love him.
Yes, I may not be a perfect girl to him, and there might be a prettier, sexier, smarter or the ideal girl he can have. But I'm lucky for now he choose me. And I hope it will always remain that way.
This part of the post sound so mushy. But this is what I really feel. And I thank god for placing him in my life. Whether to be good or bad I still thank God , because this relationship really impacted me alot , emotionally, physically and even mentally. Like what I have always told myself, why didn't I met him earlier. Haha! But if you think it another way, if I were to met him earlier, I would not appreciate him like how I do now. So probably god made my other ex as my lessons before he send my boy to me to really appreciate him. Thank you for all the lessons. I did learnt alot. And thank you dear for being the nicest boyfriend so far. I hope it stops here. (:
I love you.
The first ever picture with my boy:
