Ice skating

Hi!!! I went ice skating last Friday during the holidays! With my sweet boy , suyi and guangwei.
It was my first time ice skating. It was super fun I swear! And that day I didn't had flats to match for my stockings so I wore heels. Everyone was so short except for my boy that was same height as me. Haha!
So I can officially say, ice skating isn't the same as roller blading. It's freaking scary and cold if you fall. Confirm will hurt like shit cause it's ice! And if any bare skin touched the ice it's gonna hurt like shit.
Lucky for me I didn't fall. I skated damn slowly. Haha! Really like a noobie. Lucky I wasn't alone. Gw was equally noobie as me.
But dear was the pro-est out of all of us. So he kinda abandon everyone ): so sad right?!
After skating we went to mbs to meet up with elly, nat and Steffi to like chill. We were suppose to join them for Picnic at marina barrage. But we were busy ice skating. So we didn't make it on time.
And I was double happy when dear and gw brought TWG macarons for me and suyi. I love it so much! Like double sweetness. Thank you dear. I love you. You are the best. many kisses to you!


I only have pictures of my boy during ice skating. Hahaha!!

Stressed out

Sorry for all the emo posts lately.
I have been thinking alot. And it's really really irritating to the max that I could burst any moment any time any where. Must be the hormones and all those thinking that is stressing me out. I know I shouldn't think too much and shouldn't expect too much in life. But sometimes, humans are humans. And we tend to be greedy and unhappy with stuffs we already have.
Yes. I do look on the bright side. But somehow. I don't know why. The dark side seems to empower the bright side. So it's like I have more cons than pros.
Or maybe it's just me being ungrateful for the things happening around me. Really. Sometimes I really have the urge to scold someone and just vent this fucking anger. But it will be really unfair for that person. So I couldn't bring myself to do it. Even if I did, it won't be that big and not everything will come out.
Been keeping lots of things to myself. And maybe this causes the over thinking and the moodiness I had been having. The bottle seems to be exploding. So maybe I may explode to. Just a matter of time.
Why can't I just sit down in a relaxing and quiet place to just have a heart to heart talk to someone and they won't judge or comment. Just listen for hours. And let out all the tears I have been holding in for years. Or maybe I just need a person to ask me daily how was my day, what interesting things happened. I hope I find that person soon. Please.
Sometimes pretending to smile and be happy is really hard

School? Friends? Hmm?

Sometimes I really wonder if what people said were true. "Don't trust your poly friends" , "your true friends are your secondary friends" , "friends first than boyfriend cause when boyfriend leaves friends will always be there" .
This are the many few that I have heard all around.
And it's been interpreting in my head for many times and I came to a conclusion that it could maybe be true. To a certain extend.
Haha! Sounds so complicated . But yes. Life is always complicated (:
So anyway. I totally agree with the boyfriend thing. Like right from the start.
But just to clear things. NOT all friends will be there for you when you break up. Only the handful. I mean, yes they may comfort you. But would they be there for you? Hmm.. I guess not right? They may say, are you ok?! What happen?! Don't sad already luh! His a worthless person! You will find a better one.
But who really comes down, sit with you and talk and just ... Listen?
Not many will.

Don't trust your poly friends? Going to my second year now. And I must honestly say. The right word isn't trust. Yes you can trust your poly friends. What's the differences with poly, secondary, outside, inside, underground wtv friends you have.
They are all your friends. What I found out its, in poly it's really really competitive. Everyone JUDGES. I assure you. EVERYONE. E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E .
What you wear, how you look, what bag you bring, what make up you use, what shoes you wear, how skinny you are, what school you were from and especially the grades. Omg. I swear to god. The grades the GPA are just the killer to your friendship.
I really don't get it. GPAs are just numbers, like our o levels, mid year exams, end year exams in secondary. Why couldnt we share out gpa openly like all our secondary exams? It's just really weird. Up till now I still wonder.
So what If the person has a high GPA. Or a low GPA? They are still studying the same subjects as you right? Doesn't mean you shouldn't be friends with them. doesn't mean they are not smart. And importantly, it doesn't mean you can judge them. So stop judging!

And like what many says, you do not need many friends in life. Just the ones who are true to you is more than enough. (:
I'm thankful for my IJ friends. And don't judge chij girls, they are just wild and happily more open than many others. I definitely support people who are open minded! Haha.
Okay! Goodbye!

Ending my post with my cutest boyfriend (:

Some random things

Hi !! A little thoughts that was running through my head and I thought maybe it would be funny to write it down. Then when I look back to this post next time I will laugh. Haha !
Had read some of my past post from my previous blog. Yes! It's private. And I forgotten the password for it. ._. But I still can read the post from the blogger app which im using to blog! Super useful !
Oh yes! And I met with Steffi and xiangbei to Malaysia on Monday! Which was also my driving test. i failed so terrible that its a crime to say the number of points I "score".
I have always aim for high marks. So for this test it was kinda of a wrong timing to score a high mark. Hahah!
Met up with mel for interview at mansion, hopefully we both get the job! The pay is really good! If I were to get that job I will be able to earn alot by end of the year. (: means I will be stress free from money! But... The downside is, I have to work Fridays and Saturdays. Means.... My Saturday times to meet boyfriend will be shorten. ):
But hope he understands !
I really need the money for this year. Like major money alarm !
I really really hate working. I mean like who likes it right? My all time wish is to sit home and be a tai tai when I'm married. But.... Seeing my situation. I doubt I'm able to. So my dream of shopping all day, and sleeping in my private house will be faded away, or should I say already long gone. ):
So you can already imagine what I had in mind when I grow up. Atleast a 2 carat ring for proposal ! Diamonds are my best friend! Hehe. Staying in my private house with 3 stories . A walk in wardrobe, with many many clothes and shoes. Omg. I won't even start what my house should look like. This dreams I think abit far fetch with my current situation. So ya... Probably just a wish. (:

Smoking

A really sensitive and subjective post.
With many objections and maybe agreements. Why people smoke? Stress? Fun? Cool? Addictive? I don't really know the reason, everyone has their own.
What I really think is smoking isn't my thing for sure. But I do not disagree with it either, or would I ever agree to it.
From what I hear from people why they started smoking is because of stress.
But what I really want to ask is, stress about what??
Relationships? Work? Study? Money? Friendship? Family? Yes, I agree you can be stress with these things. But... If there are still people able to cope these so called "stress" what makes you so special to be able to subside your "stress" with smoking?
It just don't make sense to me. Really. Someone please enlighten me ?
Unless you tell me you are weak and completely can't handle simple small stress that comes to you and you must puff your way out to make you relieve. Then I have nothing more to say to you. Ok! Maybe just one... You just admitted you are weak (:
So, ok. Some people will tell me that I will never understand what they went through. True. I agree with that because I'm not them. But what I am sure about is that I do go through equal stress level as you in just different situation. So, is smoking really the solution? No. Not to me.

Since I do not smoke, I would ask. In all honest replies. Is smoking really addictive? Or isit just a habit?
I do not agree that smoking is addictive. I mean, is like breathing in thick smoke. How is that even addictive?! It's not even logical. Imagine breathing in thick black smokes from factories. Don't you think it's the same?
If smoking was addictive, won't it make sense if breathing in smoke from smokers addictive too? They are also smoke right? So ya. Nothing really is giving me a right connection to think that smoking is addictive.

Ok. I'm bored of talking about smoking already. It just turns me off. So ya. I'm just gonna end here. Haha!