Sorry for all the emo posts lately.
I have been thinking alot. And it's really really irritating to the max that I could burst any moment any time any where. Must be the hormones and all those thinking that is stressing me out. I know I shouldn't think too much and shouldn't expect too much in life. But sometimes, humans are humans. And we tend to be greedy and unhappy with stuffs we already have.
Yes. I do look on the bright side. But somehow. I don't know why. The dark side seems to empower the bright side. So it's like I have more cons than pros.
Or maybe it's just me being ungrateful for the things happening around me. Really. Sometimes I really have the urge to scold someone and just vent this fucking anger. But it will be really unfair for that person. So I couldn't bring myself to do it. Even if I did, it won't be that big and not everything will come out.
Been keeping lots of things to myself. And maybe this causes the over thinking and the moodiness I had been having. The bottle seems to be exploding. So maybe I may explode to. Just a matter of time.
Why can't I just sit down in a relaxing and quiet place to just have a heart to heart talk to someone and they won't judge or comment. Just listen for hours. And let out all the tears I have been holding in for years. Or maybe I just need a person to ask me daily how was my day, what interesting things happened. I hope I find that person soon. Please.
Sometimes pretending to smile and be happy is really hard
